a tiny update + goals

I have been home from Spain for a week now and I feel like my days have been filled with stuff to do. I’m still cleaning my room, and working on that. I’m still trying to write and read as much as possible. And I have been hanging out with friends and family before everyone goes off for school and work and whatever else.

Before we left for Spain, my friend and I drove to Ikea and I bought some Billy bookshelves. I have wanted them for a while, and I finally decided to buy them. And oh my god, I am in love. They look so much better than my last bookshelf which I had to use tape and a couple of my belts to keep my books from falling out on the sides. I have thrown away so much crap and I still find more to throw away everywhere I look. Its both extremely liberating and terrifying at the same time – I get emotionally attached to practically everything…

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I bought paint to paint my desk to a dark green colour. I finished it last night and I love it. It’s a deep green, and I just think it looks gorgeous! I think I’m in love…

So far in 2017 I have managed to read 17 books and I am very happy with it. I managed to read 4 books during my trip to Spain. 2 of which was 600+ pages, 1 was 400+ pages and the last one 270 (ish) pages! And you know what, I’m proud of myself!

I have also managed to write a decent amount during these past few weeks. While we were in Spain, towards the last few days, I got this craving to write and I wrote a chapter of this story that I really want to write and publish on wattpad. I have also been working on and plotting and outlining another novel and I’m also working on another one… My problem isn’t that I don’t have enough ideas, but rather the opposite… I have so many ideas (some terrible, and some decent) that I want to write on and it makes me frustrated because I want to write them all!

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But I have a goal: I want to finish outlining my world war 2 novel, and possibly write and finish draft 1. I want to write and finish another “historical fiction” novel’s first draft. And then, lastly (for now), my wattpad story – I want to write draft one, possibly start draft 2 before the end of the year…. Though, the story I’m prioritizing is the world war 2 historical fiction because I’m really motivated to write it and I think – if I’m allowed to say so – it has potential.

I don’t have much to do this upcoming year: hopefully I’ll get a job and work a few times a week, but other than that… I don’t have much to do. I want to focus on my fitness and health and my youtube channel (where I want to do mainly book related videos and possibly a few bullet journal and so on videos). And then write. And write. And write! Oh, and read enough books to fill my room… Not really, but I would like to read 40 or more books!

But even though I am super excited about writing these books, I’m also nervous. I want and love to write, but I’m self-conscious about it. I try to tell myself that I won’t get better if I don’t start writing more, but… I don’t know. I’m scared it’s going to turn out like shit. Which it might. But just the first draft. And then I can fix it!

We’ll see, I guess.

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Thank you for reading! I hope you enjoyed. I’ll be writing a read-a-thon post soon, I just need to figure it out…

Bullet Journal

Two days ago I went and bought myself a notebook, without really knowing what I was going to use it for. (I’m addicted to buying notebooks) However, after I realized the notebook had an index and numbered pages I decided it was perfect for a bullet journal.

I have tried bullet journaling before but it didn’t really work for me, but I love the concept, so I have decided to give it another go.

All though, this time I won’t be using it as a daily planner (I hated drawing up the days everyday. It took to long) but rather as a notebook to organize every other thing I want to have written down: writing related, reading related, lists and whatever else I want to put in there.

I filmed myself making two of the pages and posted it on my youtube channel, so if you are interested in seeing that:

I’m planning on doing more of these videos, and when I have made more pages and used it for a while I’ll do a flip through!

Anyone interested in that?

day 10

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I’m against drugs, I don’t see why there is any need for it unless it’s for medical reasons. But to be honest, I don’ really have a lot of thoughts when it comes to drugs, but I don’t think it’s ok to use it, unless, as I said, it’s for medical reasons.

Alcohol on the other hand, I don’t mind. Except if the person who is under the influence of alcohol harms themselves or others. Other than that, I think alcohol is perfectly fine. As long as people are careful.

Personally, I have never tried drugs, and I have no intention or want to try it. Alcohol on the other hand, I have tried. The first time I tasted alcohol was on my 18th birthday (which is the legal age in Norway) and I did not like it at all. Since then I have tried a few things like wine and so, and beer, but beer is just disgusting! The only thing I have tasted that I didn’t absolutely hate is a lemony wish thing that tasted OK!2

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Days without stress and worry.

You know, the days before school became a burden and thinking about your future made you anxious.

I know I’m not the only one who misses the younger days where all you worried about was if your parents would let you go out to play with friends after dinner.

That’s what I miss. Now, there isn’t a day that goes by without some unwanted stress or anxious moments thinking about what will happen to me in the future.

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day 8

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I’m going to be very brief on this one, because I don’t really have much to say. If I spent a good time thinking about the different ways I have changed, I guess I would have a lot more to write about, but a lot of it is a little private, and I don’t want to share to much of that.

One way I have changed over these past two years is with my mental health. In the time around me dropping out of school I was lonely, sad and a little depressed, but when I finally dropped out I became happier. A weight had lifted of my shoulders. But, that’s more than two years ago, so I’ll jump a little forward in time: during these two years I have been working on handling stress better, and I believe it has worked a lot. Doing that has changed me a little. I look on things differently and I tell myself that whatever it is I’m stressing because of, will be gone in a week, a month or a year. That has helped me.

I have become happier (there has been ups and downs, but thats normal) and I feel better. I started youtube, which is a result of working on my self – my confidence. I would never have managed to post a youtube video two years ago. (I have wanted to make youtube videos for five years)

So, I guess that’s all I wanted to say, really. It may seem like a small thing, but it isn’t for me. I forced myself to deal with stress better and I gained confidence in myself. That’s a big deal for me!2

day 7

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If I fail after this, I’m happy I have managed a week!

When I added this challenge onto the list I thought it would be easy, but now that I actually have to write it, I’m honestly struggling a little bit. My mind has just lost all of the knowledge I have on attractive men. I searched man crush on pinterest and looked for close to ten minutes but I could only find 4, so, whoops!

I have a thing for bearded men, ok?

Let’s see, here we have Chris Evans, Dominic Cooper, Matt Bomer and Henry Cavill. They are all just beautiful aren’t they?

Chris Evans is just the perfect Captain America, and he contributes to Captain America: The first Avengers ending up as one of my all time favourite movies.

Dominic Cooper also contributes to making the same movie amazing! I watched White Collar and saw Matt Bomer and drooled every episode. Unfortunately he doesn’t swing to girls… What a shame.. Henry Cavill is just beautiful as Superman and in The man from U.n.c.l.e.

Anyone you find attractive?

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day 6

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Education. I think education is very important. I think going to school and getting an education is super important.

However, I think the way school works at this time is the worst it could be. I love to use this example; if you force different animals to do the same task because “that’s whats fair”, school isn’t fair. If you have a monkey, a giraffe and a fish, do you think all of those will be able to touch the top of a tree? No. Some of them will be able to do it, some easier than others, but they will manage it nonetheless, but then you have some that can’t do it. No matter what. They just can’t.

I think that’s how the school system nowadays works. It’s terrible. I know this post isn’t technically about what I think about the school system, but I just think it’s important to talk about that when I talk about education.

I have always loved learning, and I used to love to go to school. But that was before we started with grading, and marking and all of that. You didn’t focus on your grade but what you actually learned. Now, I feel like you only focus on what grade you get, how well you do on your exams and so on.

Education is SO important, but when you do it the wrong way it won’t do what you actually want to.

At least 80% of the things I know, I learned by living. I learned it by reading because I actually wanted to read it and not because I was forced to do so. I think education is important, but health, mental and physical, should be considered first.

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day 5

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One place I really want to travel to is Scotland. Ever since I started watching and reading the Outlander series, I have just really wanted to go there.(All though I have to intention to go near any standing stones, just to be safe) I love old buildings and other things like that, and Scotland is filled with old and beautiful castles, and I would literally be in heaven if I could ever walk around those castles.Preferably with a dress from the 1500s or something.

So, the reason I want to go there is mostly to look at historical settings, because thats what  interest me a whole lot. And maybe go for a hike and live in a little hotel room in a small village or something like that.

I’m planning on forcing friends to go with me someday!

 

Thank you google for these pictures!sdasd

day 4

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I was born on the 23rd of September, which makes me a Virgo and sometimes a Libra, but I count myself as a Virgo because that’s what I am most of the times, according to magazines and things like that.

I have never really looked at zodiac signs and things like that, but I have to be honest and say that I do think it matches my personality a lot of the times, which is a little creepy… But non the less, let’s see!

Strengths: Loyal, analytical, kind, hardworking, practical

Defiantly somewhat true, I suppose. I would say I’m quite loyal, defiantly analytical. I think, and hope I’m kind, and I try to be hardworking. I guess all of these fit my personality.

I’m getting a little creeped out by this.

Weaknesses: Shyness, worry, overly critical of self and others, all work and no play

I can tell you right away that the first, second and third one is completely true. I am so shy, I worry about everything, and I am very critical about myself and sometimes others. The last one, hmmm…. I don’t know. I used to be like that, but I have worked on it, so I would say the last one is wrong.

Virgo likes: Animals, healthy food, books, nature, cleanliness

I love animals. Fun fact about me; when I’m older I want to have pygmy goats, dogs and cats, possibly even rabbits. Hehe. I also like healthy food, but I also love unhealthy food. It’s a struggle… If you have read my blog you will know I love books, and I also love nature and cleanliness, but I hate to clean!

Virgo dislikes: Rudeness, asking for help, taking center stage

Completely true, all of them. I hate rude people and I hate to be the center of attention. I don’t love asking for help, but I do it if I need to.

I read a little more on this site (click here) and almost everything is right when it comes to me, it’s a little scary. But I guess, in the end, my zodiac sign fits me pretty well!123123

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I was going to add a definition on religion, just for the heck of it, but then I remembered something I learned in Religion and Ethics class I took just before christmas; it’s hard to define religion in one go. One definition might work for one religion but is completely off for another one. So I’m going to skip the definition. Everyone has a different definition for religion according to their beliefs and lives and whatever else.

My views on religion, though? Hmm. I’m not religious. I grew up without religion, all though if I had to say a religion I guess it would be christianity seeing that I was christened as a baby, I had a christian confirmation when I was 15 and, unless my future husband is against it, I’m probably going to get married in a church, and have my kids christened. It’s just the way my family does it. (As far as I know, no one in my family are christian, or religious for that matter, but everyone has a christening and all of that.)

Anyway, my views as a non-religious human being; I’m not against religion. I’m perfectly fine with religion, and I believe it’s a good thing for some people. The only “requirement” I have for religious people is that they are open minded and that they teach their kids that, yes, there are people out there who doesn’t believe in the same god, or any god’s existence at all.

So yeah, I don’t mind religion. Because, in the end, what does it matter to me if someone believes in a god? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. I think that as long as I respect them, and they respect me, there shouldn’t be a problem when it comes to religion…

There is a quote I saw on tumblr one time, months and months ago, that just stuck to my mind. (Unfortunately I don’t remember what tumblr user said this..)

“I will respect your opinion as long as your opinion doesn’t disrespect anyones existence.”

And I just think it works with so many different things…asd