a tiny update + goals

I have been home from Spain for a week now and I feel like my days have been filled with stuff to do. I’m still cleaning my room, and working on that. I’m still trying to write and read as much as possible. And I have been hanging out with friends and family before everyone goes off for school and work and whatever else.

Before we left for Spain, my friend and I drove to Ikea and I bought some Billy bookshelves. I have wanted them for a while, and I finally decided to buy them. And oh my god, I am in love. They look so much better than my last bookshelf which I had to use tape and a couple of my belts to keep my books from falling out on the sides. I have thrown away so much crap and I still find more to throw away everywhere I look. Its both extremely liberating and terrifying at the same time – I get emotionally attached to practically everything…

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I bought paint to paint my desk to a dark green colour. I finished it last night and I love it. It’s a deep green, and I just think it looks gorgeous! I think I’m in love…

So far in 2017 I have managed to read 17 books and I am very happy with it. I managed to read 4 books during my trip to Spain. 2 of which was 600+ pages, 1 was 400+ pages and the last one 270 (ish) pages! And you know what, I’m proud of myself!

I have also managed to write a decent amount during these past few weeks. While we were in Spain, towards the last few days, I got this craving to write and I wrote a chapter of this story that I really want to write and publish on wattpad. I have also been working on and plotting and outlining another novel and I’m also working on another one… My problem isn’t that I don’t have enough ideas, but rather the opposite… I have so many ideas (some terrible, and some decent) that I want to write on and it makes me frustrated because I want to write them all!

thumbnail_IMG_8734 2(defiantly one of my favourite books of 2017! + I’ve already bought the next book)

But I have a goal: I want to finish outlining my world war 2 novel, and possibly write and finish draft 1. I want to write and finish another “historical fiction” novel’s first draft. And then, lastly (for now), my wattpad story – I want to write draft one, possibly start draft 2 before the end of the year…. Though, the story I’m prioritizing is the world war 2 historical fiction because I’m really motivated to write it and I think – if I’m allowed to say so – it has potential.

I don’t have much to do this upcoming year: hopefully I’ll get a job and work a few times a week, but other than that… I don’t have much to do. I want to focus on my fitness and health and my youtube channel (where I want to do mainly book related videos and possibly a few bullet journal and so on videos). And then write. And write. And write! Oh, and read enough books to fill my room… Not really, but I would like to read 40 or more books!

But even though I am super excited about writing these books, I’m also nervous. I want and love to write, but I’m self-conscious about it. I try to tell myself that I won’t get better if I don’t start writing more, but… I don’t know. I’m scared it’s going to turn out like shit. Which it might. But just the first draft. And then I can fix it!

We’ll see, I guess.

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Thank you for reading! I hope you enjoyed. I’ll be writing a read-a-thon post soon, I just need to figure it out…

Bullet Journal

Two days ago I went and bought myself a notebook, without really knowing what I was going to use it for. (I’m addicted to buying notebooks) However, after I realized the notebook had an index and numbered pages I decided it was perfect for a bullet journal.

I have tried bullet journaling before but it didn’t really work for me, but I love the concept, so I have decided to give it another go.

All though, this time I won’t be using it as a daily planner (I hated drawing up the days everyday. It took to long) but rather as a notebook to organize every other thing I want to have written down: writing related, reading related, lists and whatever else I want to put in there.

I filmed myself making two of the pages and posted it on my youtube channel, so if you are interested in seeing that:

I’m planning on doing more of these videos, and when I have made more pages and used it for a while I’ll do a flip through!

Anyone interested in that?

day 10

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I’m against drugs, I don’t see why there is any need for it unless it’s for medical reasons. But to be honest, I don’ really have a lot of thoughts when it comes to drugs, but I don’t think it’s ok to use it, unless, as I said, it’s for medical reasons.

Alcohol on the other hand, I don’t mind. Except if the person who is under the influence of alcohol harms themselves or others. Other than that, I think alcohol is perfectly fine. As long as people are careful.

Personally, I have never tried drugs, and I have no intention or want to try it. Alcohol on the other hand, I have tried. The first time I tasted alcohol was on my 18th birthday (which is the legal age in Norway) and I did not like it at all. Since then I have tried a few things like wine and so, and beer, but beer is just disgusting! The only thing I have tasted that I didn’t absolutely hate is a lemony wish thing that tasted OK!2

day 8

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I’m going to be very brief on this one, because I don’t really have much to say. If I spent a good time thinking about the different ways I have changed, I guess I would have a lot more to write about, but a lot of it is a little private, and I don’t want to share to much of that.

One way I have changed over these past two years is with my mental health. In the time around me dropping out of school I was lonely, sad and a little depressed, but when I finally dropped out I became happier. A weight had lifted of my shoulders. But, that’s more than two years ago, so I’ll jump a little forward in time: during these two years I have been working on handling stress better, and I believe it has worked a lot. Doing that has changed me a little. I look on things differently and I tell myself that whatever it is I’m stressing because of, will be gone in a week, a month or a year. That has helped me.

I have become happier (there has been ups and downs, but thats normal) and I feel better. I started youtube, which is a result of working on my self – my confidence. I would never have managed to post a youtube video two years ago. (I have wanted to make youtube videos for five years)

So, I guess that’s all I wanted to say, really. It may seem like a small thing, but it isn’t for me. I forced myself to deal with stress better and I gained confidence in myself. That’s a big deal for me!2

day 7

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If I fail after this, I’m happy I have managed a week!

When I added this challenge onto the list I thought it would be easy, but now that I actually have to write it, I’m honestly struggling a little bit. My mind has just lost all of the knowledge I have on attractive men. I searched man crush on pinterest and looked for close to ten minutes but I could only find 4, so, whoops!

I have a thing for bearded men, ok?

Let’s see, here we have Chris Evans, Dominic Cooper, Matt Bomer and Henry Cavill. They are all just beautiful aren’t they?

Chris Evans is just the perfect Captain America, and he contributes to Captain America: The first Avengers ending up as one of my all time favourite movies.

Dominic Cooper also contributes to making the same movie amazing! I watched White Collar and saw Matt Bomer and drooled every episode. Unfortunately he doesn’t swing to girls… What a shame.. Henry Cavill is just beautiful as Superman and in The man from U.n.c.l.e.

Anyone you find attractive?

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day 6

(This is my 100th blog post!)1

Education. I think education is very important. I think going to school and getting an education is super important.

However, I think the way school works at this time is the worst it could be. I love to use this example; if you force different animals to do the same task because “that’s whats fair”, school isn’t fair. If you have a monkey, a giraffe and a fish, do you think all of those will be able to touch the top of a tree? No. Some of them will be able to do it, some easier than others, but they will manage it nonetheless, but then you have some that can’t do it. No matter what. They just can’t.

I think that’s how the school system nowadays works. It’s terrible. I know this post isn’t technically about what I think about the school system, but I just think it’s important to talk about that when I talk about education.

I have always loved learning, and I used to love to go to school. But that was before we started with grading, and marking and all of that. You didn’t focus on your grade but what you actually learned. Now, I feel like you only focus on what grade you get, how well you do on your exams and so on.

Education is SO important, but when you do it the wrong way it won’t do what you actually want to.

At least 80% of the things I know, I learned by living. I learned it by reading because I actually wanted to read it and not because I was forced to do so. I think education is important, but health, mental and physical, should be considered first.

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day 3

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I was going to add a definition on religion, just for the heck of it, but then I remembered something I learned in Religion and Ethics class I took just before christmas; it’s hard to define religion in one go. One definition might work for one religion but is completely off for another one. So I’m going to skip the definition. Everyone has a different definition for religion according to their beliefs and lives and whatever else.

My views on religion, though? Hmm. I’m not religious. I grew up without religion, all though if I had to say a religion I guess it would be christianity seeing that I was christened as a baby, I had a christian confirmation when I was 15 and, unless my future husband is against it, I’m probably going to get married in a church, and have my kids christened. It’s just the way my family does it. (As far as I know, no one in my family are christian, or religious for that matter, but everyone has a christening and all of that.)

Anyway, my views as a non-religious human being; I’m not against religion. I’m perfectly fine with religion, and I believe it’s a good thing for some people. The only “requirement” I have for religious people is that they are open minded and that they teach their kids that, yes, there are people out there who doesn’t believe in the same god, or any god’s existence at all.

So yeah, I don’t mind religion. Because, in the end, what does it matter to me if someone believes in a god? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. I think that as long as I respect them, and they respect me, there shouldn’t be a problem when it comes to religion…

There is a quote I saw on tumblr one time, months and months ago, that just stuck to my mind. (Unfortunately I don’t remember what tumblr user said this..)

“I will respect your opinion as long as your opinion doesn’t disrespect anyones existence.”

And I just think it works with so many different things…asd

30 day challenge

It’s already been a few days since the month/year started and I should have started with this challenge on January 1st, but I didn’t actually think about this before now.

I have been looking for a way to challenge me into writing something every single day (preferably for the entire year), and I knew that it would be hard to write fiction (which is what I love the most) everyday. I have tried, and though, it was suppose to be a challenge to write on a story of mine everyday, I decided I wanted to do something else, something a little easier, perhaps.

These 30 day challenges have been on my mind for a while, but the problem is that I have never found one that has questions that I like, or that I want to answer. And I don’t mean questions that I would prefer to not answer, but questions that doesn’t really interest me.

I wanted to have questions that interested me and made me want to continue answering them. And learning from past attempts to do things similar to this, I know I need questions that interest me.

Therefore, I decided to make my own. I looked through pre-excisiting challenges that I found on Pinterest and wrote down the questions that I wanted to have, then I added other questions that I also thought would be challenging but fun to answer. Another reason why I don’t love the pre-excisiting ones is because they have simple and “cute” questions, if that makes sense. Questions that are easy to answer, and that wouldn’t need my brain to really think.

So when I made my own, I tried to have a mix of “hard” questions and some “easy”. Let me give you an example, because I don’t know if I’m explaining this very well.

Let’s take day 3 and day 16. Day 3 is about religion and my views on it. As I’m writing this, I don’t really know what I would answer because I would have to think a little bit about it, which, compared to day 16 is different. On day 16, I sort of already know the answer. Does that make sense?

Anyway, the plan is to make one of these every single month. I have no idea how it will go, but I think it will be a fun challenge. I want to write a lot more than I did last year, and I think this will be a good way. Obviously, this isn’t fiction (which is what I usually *try* to write) but writing is writing, and every time I write, I improve my writing!

I’m going to be doing this on this blog, because I know it will be easier for me to give up if I have to write it for hand. Now, I love handwriting, but it takes longer and sometimes when I write I need to be quick because my brain works “too fast” for my handwriting to keep up.

So, anyway wants to join me? If anyone is interested, please let me know and tell me how you do!

I will start tomorrow! (And there will be blog posts about books and other things like I normally do, but the goal is to have one of these each day!)

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